worn & aged

on my playlist right now… can’t help but think about these lines–

And what does someone do without love?
And what does someone do with love?
And what have you got to say about that?

hmmm… i dunno…

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Mulder & Scully

I’d rather be liberated, I find myself captivated
Stop doing what you
Keep doing it too
I’d rather stay bold and lonely,
I dream I’m your one and only
Stop doing what you
Keep doing it too

Things are getting strange, I’m starting to worry
This could be a case for Mulder and Scully
Things are getting strange, now I can’t sleep alone
I’d rather be jumping ship,
I find myself jumping straight in
Stop doing what you
Keep doing it too

Forever be dozy and dim, I wake myself thinking of him
Stop doing what you
Keep doing it too
My bed is made for two and there’s nothing I can do
So tell me something I don’t know
If my head is full of you is there nothing I can do?
Must we all march in two by two by two?
Things are getting strange, I’m starting to worry
This could be a case for Mulder and Scully
Things are getting strange, now I can’t sleep alone
And as for some happy ending,
I’d rather stay single and thin
Stop doing what you
Keep doing to me

Things are getting strange, I’m starting to worry
This could be a case for Mulder and Scully
Things are getting strange, now I can’t sleep alone here
Things are getting strange, I’m starting to worry
This could be a case for Mulder and Scully
Things are getting strange, now I can’t sleep alone
So what have you got to say about that?
And what does someone do without love?
And what does someone do with love?
And what have you got to say about that?

got this msg from multiply yesterday:

Hey chicklet I am vtierce750  I am AH’s friend. Would like to connect with you in multiply. Check me out. Oh yes you are a funny girl.

take note: i am funny!

people never really ceases to amaze me.

a few days ago, i was trying to contact an old friend. i previously received an online message saying that my friend lost her mobile. since it was important that i contacted her, i tried her old numbers in the hope that one of still works (she keep a lot of fones & sims) so there i called all her other #’s and as expected i heard the pre-recorded vm saying it was out of coverage something, i was trying out the last number when viola! it was actually ringing. i got the surprise of my life when the voice that greeted me was a man. My friend is a woman. we don’t seem to understand each other, he was clearly speaking in another dialect, well more so like an alien language actually. i hung up the fone forgotten about the call. then i got a text in the evening from the # i called earlier, asking me why i called and who i was. i replied, i asked the person who he was and explained that i was trying to contact my friend. got a male name (mark) and he wanted to meet with me—what the heck! i don’t even know this guy for pete’s sake. i told him then and there than i won’t be getting any message from me again. And i thought it was the end of it though, yesterday i got a message from an unknown number, the sender was obviously upset, it claimed that i was the lover or something. by now i figure out that maybe this is the jealous gf or wife perhaps. she was asking me if i met mark on the nightclub, my goodness! i told her her bf was using a stolen sim, she won’t listen to a word i’m saying–she just wanted to confirm the fact that i am indeed the lover, she even have someone call me using a landline. i told her that if she won’t stop, i’m going to report her to the authorities coz what she’s doing is clearly harassment. she replied, saying that i shouldn’t mess with her coz her dad is a colonel on some camp and she even call me a korean bug—what the hell. i have to say she is stupid enuf to give me info and i have her landline! i didn’t text her back coz she’s not on my league and besides what do i get out of it? i will just be wasting my piso on unimportant messages.

sometimes you can’t really fathom the mind of a jealous woman. whatever there problem is, they should have settled it between the 2 of them. i didn’t do anything, and i did try to explain my side.

for the best of everyone—i kept my previous blog entry private.

the wait is killing me. eversince i got the call, i had been restless, can’t think straight and can’t even focus. patience has never been one of my virtues and this time i needed it most. where were you when i needed you? damn you! i’ve been fidgeting every minute and i wonder i get through today without a calamity. this is really insane.

annarki resigned! oh well looks like only a few of us will be left in the building. the question now is “who’s next?”. basically there are a lot of reasons while these kids resign. i guess the the most important factor is money—you love your job but is your employer giving you what you richly deserve?

i envy them! i wanted to resign a long time ago but i got a lot of payables right now, if only…

my officemates assumed that i won’t though coz they think i have a good salary— which isn’t true. in fact, i am struggling. right now i am counting the days where i can finally get out of this jam.

just when you think you heard the last from a person,  from out of the blue he calls and gives you a very good proposal. now that’s what i call tricky… i am excited about it, and it could be the biggest decision i will make in my entire life. I had trouble concentrating after the call, my mind was filled with the what ifs of this world. from my standard i am a risk-taker but i dunno if will be able to take this much risk though. in the past i have let go of countless opportunities and right now i am weighing my options. it would mean oppositions from my family and getting out of my comfort zone. but what do i get in return? i can think of lots. the question now is— is it really what i want? told a couple of friends and they are encouraging me to take the plunge, i’m still hesistant for now…

with a heavy heart i sigh… my bro left for manila this morning, parents came early to pick him up and dropped him at the airport. wanted to say bye but i didn’t, i was on the shower when they left. i hate goodbyes! it will be different when i get home tonight, he won’t be there and it will be eerie. got used to him feeding me, now i have to fend for myself.

if there’s one thing i am so passionate about, it is taking picture. my fascination started when i was very young. we don’t have a slr back then, we couldn’t afford it, and nobody had a use for it. what we had was a 110 point n shoot camera and then there’s the 135. film was never cheap, so we save our kodak moments for special ocassion such as birthdays, end of schoolyear or xmas. i remember they used to take my picture when i had a new dress or when i had a new hairstyle haha. sundays were always special back then when our whole family would hear mass at the cathedral and pose somewhere in the small plaza inside the church. those were happier days, and that started my love for photography. it came to a point where i no longer wanted to be a part of the picture but would volunteer to take the picture myself. my father taught me the basics, i made a lot of mistakes a long the way but i am grateful they didn’t prevented me from taking pics. though at times popsie would tell me to stop taking unnecessary pics coz developing is so expensive. i dreamt of having my very own cam, i can’t ask for such an expensive gift from my parents. Later when i took up photography class, i had an excuse of demanding for an slr cam, and that’s when i got serious with my craft. I learned the dark room technique and i got hooked. I also started to travel within the region, and shoot to my heart’s content. i had a lot of good photographs way back but my friends borrowed it, and i had a hard time tracing where they are. for a while i got busy with work and my desire to take good pictures waned. this year i got reunited with a fellow club member and we talked about photography, and that’s when we decided to revive our dying hobby and form a new group. i guess i am active again, and i’m excited about it.

like they say, everybody can take pictures but not everyone has the “eye”. i don’t claim to have it but my pictures speaks for itself.

i didn’t know i would be missed.

    Folks from the office asked where i was yesterday…

    my bestfriend was asking what’s wrong…

    Got a msg from somebody saying that he missed me…

    my inaanak missed me, and wanted to have dinner 
    with me….

i dunno who else misses this crazy chick haha