insanity envelopes
i thought i know myself better, but now it seems i don’t. i have to admit that i am very lost, the road is dim, and it feels like i’m walking in circles. i hate myself for feeling this way, i am used to being so sure of myself, and right now i feel totally out of control. the guys are outside having a good time, i can hear them laughing but i just don’t have the heart to join them and be merry. instead i am stuck here in my computer writing this damn blog. i can’t understand why i am like this. i feel like crying for no apparent reason. maybe something is wrong with me, maybe i am slowly losing my grip. i don’t think it’s the weather though. there’s more to it than meets the eye.
