worn & aged

you do things in the spur of the moment. one of my good friend instructor told me i am very lazy! just today he told me to do the discover program, he will be there to observe. i told him i will think about. of course i want to do the dsd but right now i duwanna jump in the pool, not that i don’t like it, but the water is dirty, i have to wait until they change the water–well call me maarte but i used to stay in the pool for a long time and later i have white patches in my skin. i’d rather go and dive at the beach, and this time of year it’s just too hot. i told him i lacked motivation. he was surprised coz i used to be very active. i guess the bottol line is– i got LAZY. so while i am not on with it, i channeled my attention to something else. when frank told me he is conducting an efri class, i told him i will join him. i still need to do my care for children before i am eligible to join the instructor course, it’s like a suicide, i joined marky’s cfc class, and had almost 30mins break, then went on to join the efri class without reading my manual ( just got it 5mins before class started haha!), the whole program runs for 3 days, i asked my boss to excuse me from my work whilst attending the full course. it was fun, educational, and it’s on a different level. i dunno why i took it really, it’s just that i got bored and need to do something with my life. i never really think teaching is fun you know, it never occured to me really! but anyhow, i survived it! then last tuesday, they asked me to assist in the classroom. technically i can’t teach yet coz i don’t have my license yet but i am preparing myself for this job. it’s like another milestone for me. anyway, too much talking about myself. i just wished i finished my DM course soon so i know where to go from there.