worn & aged

i know i was never a good person, now everyone wants to kill me for not telling them i’m in town. you have to forgive me my friends, but even my family didn’t know i was going to be home for the holidays. everyone knows that i come and go whenever i like, and if i say something in advanced, then that means it isn’t me anymore. right now i’ve been swamped with messages, inviting me to go have a tête with them. my calendar isn’t really booked up, i just wanted to have some time with myself–to sleep and eat and eat hehehe. i already have an invitation to go diving, hopefully all goes well according to plan–which there’s none actually! and i am also looking forward to this weekend’s photoshoot. chi jadex was able to squeeze me in her group’s photo-op in iloilo. i feel really alienated right now, coz everyone here’s so high-tech and i don’t belong to any group so i could say i am left behind. nonetheless i am happy just to tag along and do what i love the most–taking pictures! hopefully i will have a great time there eventhough i dunno 99% of the folks i am going to be with, but i really don’t care coz we are there for one purpose and that is to shoot.

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i messaged chanks this pm, coz chi jadex told me he’s here still. i told him i am in town, and he asked when i arrived, and why i only told him now, he said he’s already flying early morning and packing his bag, so he can’t see me. WTF!–i just learned that the new gf is with him now, so probably the reason why he can’t see me…oh well.